Being a fangirl, I love.

Being a fangirl isn’t the healthiest lifestyle. Your sleeping patterns are an absolute mess, your eating schedule is probably equally bad, I sometimes eat too much and sometimes too little. My mind is usually in far off places, whether they be far geographically speaking like in a galaxy far far away, or a long way into the timeline of humanity, like the rise of a new generation having to deal with poverty and oppression. You’d think I’d stop. Ha.

I love being a fangirl. I love it so much I literally can’t even.

I love loving things so much that they bring me to tears instantly, that they can call up a smile to my lips with a snap of the fingers, that they can make me forget everything – problems, troubles, sadness, sleepiness – with a single face, with a single word, with a single picture.

You have no idea how much I can love something that doesn’t exist, and you have no idea how much I love that and love that I love that. Something, someone that I can’t go visit nor can even know of my existence, or maybe someone that can in fact, by some miracle realize I exist. I think it’s amazing to love so unconditionally, because loving is what humans do best you know, and I think it’s amazing, I think it’s magical.

I love being a fangirl, I really really do. And I can repeat this phrase as often as I am asked, “what are you even talking about?” and never tire. Because I’m a fangirl and I dedicate my time, energy and love to boy bands and their music that has me dancing like a clown in the middle of my room, to fictional stories and people that have me apparently laughing, crying, yelling at nothing and for no reason in front of my classmates, to things that you may think are not important, nonexistent if you wish, that should not be a priority but, in their and my own defense I just ask you this: what is the purpose of life, if not to find what you love and then love it more than humanly possible?

A wizard, a jedi, a vampire, a runner, a rebel, a boy band, a dork or two, a song, a show, a story, a world… a whole world.

I love them tremendously and I laugh with them hysterically, I cry for them miserably and I yell at them indignantly … and, and they can’t hear me. They can’t see me. They don’t know me. But I can. I do. And I love it. It’s my favorite thing in the world.

- Vanessa

Fandoms 101 with Vanessa

It's like school but about shit you actually care about it.

- Vanessa

Queen of Shadows

Listen, I am so freaking tired after every single one of these books, just like with TMI. I don't think I'll reread it soon. But I want to. I really really want to.

Aelin gets her squad together, they set fire to the rain (not literally), and here is what I thought about that.

Me Before You

I began to read this as a sort of collab with a YouTube friend. We agreed we would both read it and ask each other questions about it and make a video responding to them.

I read the Goodreads description and was like, "Eh, okay, it'll probably be a nice, light read" which is exactly what I needed after rereading Eleanor & Park and Ignite Me for like the hundredth time.

I wasn't entirely wrong.

Mockingjay Part 2 Movie Review

Freakin' awesome movie poster with a
mockingjay and the mockingjay

So tell me, this was ages ago wasn't it? I did in fact post this ages ago too, you know, for the record. I did so on Wordpress though as Blogger and had a fight. (It was my fault I admit.)

Anyways, thought I should share it here for many reasons. Like:

1. I'm too lazy.

Rant: Reading

Do not read as children do, to amuse yourself, or like the ambitious for the purpose of instruction. No, read in order to live.

Rant: Fangirls

Now I am kinda sorry for being so blunt and perhaps not very classy. But. When my opinions are strong, and in defense, I don't usually care for pleasantries.

I have a few thoughts going on about fangirls and the way society has perceived them, and where else to show them if not here.

Reading VS Writing

As you guys know, I not only read but have also been having my go at writing. Thinking about those two things, I though about some of the differences and some of the similarities and then, I thought it'd be a good idea to make a video out of it. Here it is. Quite proud of how it turned out actually.